I thought I’d take a moment to make a decree.
I am a writer. I have known this since I was a little girl. I am a writer. I know this. And this is an art form to me. It transports me to a new realm that has more oxygen than reality. And I welcome this experience.
Sometimes, I feel empty.
I have a deep yearning to tell stories and make people think…and laugh.
I have these two characters that have been living in my head for years. I love them.
I’m working on two things currently–a TV Comedy and a drama movie. I’m doing both through my company Illuminated Puzzle Productions. I’ve already finished the pilot of the comedy. The drama is about a young girl who runs away from her life. I will, down the line, do a third script–or maybe even a mini-series as I sit here thinking about this–about my loved characters. They’re a butch-femme couple.
I forget who I am so much of the time because of fear and anxiety. I am still me, every second of the day, and no other person on this planet can make me less of me at any given moment than I will always be.
I am me–always.
And for me, that is the most precious gift and journey–finding out who I am in this time…in this space. And being free in that. My life has been like a collection of puzzle pieces. Sometimes, pieces fit together and illuminate. This is always freeing.
I feel tears locked up behind my cheeks. Is that normal?
So yeah, that is what I am doing now–writing scripts. I’m amazed that it’s taken me so long. I guess I had to shed some insanity to begin. Thing is, I absolutely love it. I love the process. I love seeing what happens. It leaves me awestruck.
And I can’t compare myself to anyone else–no matter what. I am only me.
Song of the Day: Remy Shand – Son of Night